The Pain of Writing Truth-in-tier of Real Life

The Pain...of Writing Truth-....
In-Tier of Real Life........

I cannot forgive(when I'm killing myself)
I cannot be your bright child anymore(you killed my emotions)
The pain of writing truth-in-tier of real life....(gave me a purpose.....)

FROM THE FIRST,
TO THE LAST SONG
THROUGH EVERY FIGHT WITHIN AND OUT
IVE COME TO TERMS WITH MYSELF AND GOD
THAT I AM SAD FOR THE HOMELESS IN CORRUPTION....I will be their voice and
FINALLY CARVE MY OWN PATHHHHHH

Your brightness(I love)
Your hatred(I hate)
Your brightness(I love)
Your hatred(I hate)
Your brightness(I love)
Your hatred(I hate)
Your brightness(I love)
Your hatred(I hate)

FROM THE FIRST,-(EVERY LETTER)
TO THE LAST SONG-(IM DONE ABUSING MYSELF)
THROUGH EVERY FIGHT WITHIN AND OUT
-(I WILL BE THEIR VOICEEE)
IVE COME TO TERMS WITH MYSELF AND GOD
-(MY EVERYTHING, CONFLICTING)
THAT I AM SAD FOR THE HOMELESS IN
CORRUPTION....I will be their voice and
FINALLY CARVE MY OWN PATHHHHHH

YOUR BRIGHTNESS(I LOVE)
YOUR HATRED(I HATE)
YOUR BRIGHTNESS(I LOVE)
YOUR HATRED(I HATE)
YOUR BRIGHTNESS(I LOVE)
YOUR HATRED(I HATE)
YOUR BRIGHTNESS(I LOVE)
YOUR HATRED(I HATE)

I cannot forgive(when I'm killing myself)
I cannot be your bright child anymore(you killed my emotions)
The pain of writing truth-in-tier of real life....(gave me a purpose.....)


Song meaning
This song was really hard to write, despite all the repetitiveness and easy vocabulary.  I cried a lot on writing this one and stopped a few times, just to calm down.  This is the last main song of the 10TH Series and I'm never gonna say it's going to be the last song.  
I've always had my inner battles and difficulties with society and how I live with a lot of shame, but I'll say it again and keep on saying that music or writing and God saved my life.  The meaning of this song describes my lain of my writing, hence the songs title name.
When you write music or lyrics and if it's not even serious or even a little serious, don't bother writing it, cause the majority of people will see right through it.
However, I have a lot of respect for a lot of artists who have that seriousness in some of their songs, while half of the material is just God Awful, just like how most of my songs are awful.  Writing Lyrics does have it's limits and I'm coming to terms with that in a lot of ways, however, limits are meant to be broken and their is always room for fixing lyrics.  Who knows of I'm going to be doing an 11th series, I'm still on my 10.9 series, but overall, who knows if I'll ever get to share my story.
Heck I'd probably, write a testimony with this song title. Hahaha