Autumn Blues

Restless nights and sleep-filled mornings,
Anxieties of the past arise in me again.
All the should'ves, could'ves, and would'ves
Beat me down again, bringing me low.

This restless feeling that comes
And tells me that I should do more,
Be better, stronger, richer, happier
Than I am right now in my life.

As my past failures race
Their way through my mind,
All the regrets come
Flooding back in.

All the anxiety and pressure
From myself and others around me
Threatens to overwhelm me
And make feel worthless again.

I can't let it overtake me,
Not when I'm working so hard
To push forward, even if slowly
So that I can a better future.

As hurtful as these feelings are,
I can't give in to them
And I can't give up
On the slow progress I'm making.

I will get there just as long
As I can just keep going,
Even if ever so slowly
Until I can do more.