New life same pain

I'm a texan born and raised
I'm a man with no money saved
I ate once yesterday twice today
I'll admit life ain't that easy

But the hardest pain I know
Is knowing I let my baby go
If I knew now what I did then
Maybe things could have worked in the end

I let her go to save some guilt
But I was stupid and I am still
I'm in new mexico and soon to be good
But it's not the same as it should

Raven I kinda hope you are reading this
I don't mean you no harm I can't bear this
I was scared that my time had come
But I was so very very wrong

If you do read this I hope you the best
I just wish god didn't give me this test
I'm all alone with nobody to tell
But the worst thing I've ever done was put you through hell