If Only I Listened

A smile is deceptive, it's the eyes you need to seek
No one wants to see past the smile yet even then they know
Happy and full of glee, I put on the best of the show
My life is amazing, friends and family make it
But when even I believe the smile, my hope is lost

If my mind it pleas for help, my eyes will show
They would all surround me, worried
Though I can't see why
Horror fills their eyes, sorrow overwhelms
Why do they say they wished I was different

I would walk alone in a crowded room, my smile high
Greeting friends with laughter
Hugging and screaming with joy

Days would pass and I would stay my happy self
Though everyone started leaving, changing
Some friends would leave, they would yell with no reason
They couldn't take my smile much longer

One day they have left, now I'm all alone
But that's is okay, my smile will bring along a new day
I sleep so soundly, I just can't leave
Yet I open my eyes to a sight so filling

Everyone hovers, they yell and they scream
I blink my eyes and they are nowhere to be seen
I blink once more and the sirens blare
But I lay here peacefully, why are they here
What do they think has happened, can't they see my smile

My smile should say that I am okay
Yet they still hover around me
I get up and walk to the crying person against the wall
It will be fine, there's nothing wrong at all
But such bliss isn't right

I turn and see why they all have such looks
They can't hear that I'm okay, I smile but they can't see, won't see
I look at myself, a horrified mess
I'm the one who never heard the plea