Can I

Can I  go back to the days where I was a doll who never felt anything and didnt care what happend to her .

Oh yes the good old days where my heart was frozen over and everyone was keept at arms lenth never getting closer.

Can I go back to the time when the little bird was never freed from its cage.

Can I go back to being cold and numb and my heart frozen in ice .

Can I  go back to the girl who never wanted to get close to anyone or anything and always stayed alone .

I am so very tired of suffering I am so very tired of careing it hurts all of it hurts .

Its like thounds of knifes stabing in to you one at a time .

You scream for help but no one cares .

Oh please if there was such a thing let me go back to what I was befor dead and cold , hollow and numb .


But the only thing I want is to never feel this pain anymore and to die some kind of death  .....