inside my head

What goes on inside an abused woman's head
What's she thinking in her mind
On rocky waters she treads
Leaving her self worth behind
She believes in each and every one of the lies
Her abusers drum into her each day
She is ashamed of the tears she cries
Watches each and every word she may say
she sees herself as worthless, a no one
And believes no one understands or cares
She doesn't know she has the option to run
So she takes his "punishments" and stays there
She doesn't think things will ever change
Doesn't see herself worth more
The way she sees herself,he's rearranged
By pounding her head into the floor
No one can really understand
Unless they've been in her shoes
The idea is so hard for some to comprehend
Why she stays,when he beats her black and blue
She hides behind her wall of shame and denial
Too afraid to speak up and make him stop
Afraid that his temper she will rile
Too afraid to go to the cops
She believes all that he says to her
When he says she deserves what he's doing
Many have a hard time accepting this occurs
And don't know why,this life,she keeps pursueing
Her mind is bruised and battered
Her body is black and blue
Each of her dreams have been shattered
But she's adraid to leave and start anew
She's like a tiny little mouse inside
Afraid to venture out and leave
She can only withdraw into her mind and hide
Because of all the abuse,his lies,she believes
The ways of her mind are complicated and misunderstood
She doesn't know any other way
She would leave him if she felt she could
But instead, she thinks she can't,and she stays
She can only hold her breath and pray
He doesn't beat her tonight
She dreams of a day she can get away
And hope he doesn't kill her first,in their next fight