Karma

I guess it's universal payback for all I've done.
I've always played with male emotions, it was so much fun.
Unfortunately I let my heart soften.
A kind of paradise that doesn't happen to often.
But this vulnerable heart, I placed in your hands,
and I knew you'd break it anyway you can.

Is this how I made others feel?
A huge sense of pain with no way to heal.
I feel myself cracking and breaking,
It just hurts, inside I am aching.
I'm sure that I earned all of this pain.
To make others feel this, is cruel and insane.

I am a monster, I deserve no less.
This has been adding up, I gave it no rest.
Month after month, I strung up their hearts.
Then they became targets, used to play darts.
You think this hurts? Its really unbearable.
I thought my mind was bad? My heart is irreparable.