Empty Well

My life is a black hole
I live deep down in
an empty well

In this well
I am surrounded
by old friends

Doubt, fear,
anger, and
Guilt

Sadness embraces me
as warmly as my 
grandma's bosom

Here I'm safe from all that life above

Blue skies
smiling faces
I hate it all.

Give me darkness
Give me deafening quiet
Give me cold

Numbness
Give it to me

I don't want
to feel your Love

It creeps down
here to the bottom
of My well

like sparkling stars at night
they drop down and stick to my cold pale skin
untouched by the sun

You pull me out of this hole every time
I cannot escape
your unshakable Love

Why do you keep me alive?