Confusion to Insanity (Sonnet)

What is this pain I feel everyday still
Like a sharp blade running against my skin
Say "This is forever" I say "I will"
Your heart is nothing I can ever win

My feelings and thoughts can never be tamed
I pray always to see you once again
In my prayers I ask "Do you feel the same?"
If you say No it will be a endless pain

What are you thinking? I would love to know
Only to understand the truth, no lies
Just someway, somehow see beyond your show
Everyone but you sees how much I try

Tell me what you think of me, I ask please
Give me a answer, so my spirit frees