Self realization

Lost in this land of confusion,
Trying to make sense of it all.
Can't stop the drugs I'm using,
Behind every door there's a wall.

There's so much pain that I feel,
The kind that kills you off slowly,
Everything seems so out of keel,
Laying here in the dark I'm lonely.

I hide from the world out of shame,
Embarrassed of the fool I've become,
The thing is that I'm the one to blame,
For all this insanity I've succumbed.

I don't know who would help me now,
I've burned and wore down all bridges.
It's fair to say I've thrown in the towel,
After all the lies and empty ambitions.