Memory

I need to know this feeling
after the liars take the last thing you had
that was appealing
these dangers are lurking
and softly killing
but i cant feel it until im almost dead
and all this love and lust
means the same thing in my head

and i cant imagine a world when i stop trying
and convince myself to stop crying
all these demons swirling in my head
only vermin suck at the nipple, and drink a bloody red
theres no life i wouldnt give for
another day of living dead

i dont want to forget this feeling
i dont want to stop at what I said
i dont want to give in to another ending
another memory in my head

i wanna steep into a darkness
to be free and live again
and relieve from all this harshness
i dont know how to begin

will i love another failure
i think my life is for the fans
for the ones who like to break us
and desert us in the end

and shatter me, will you please?
i wanna feel it from your hand
and kick me, just strip me!
there's nothing to hide, its just skin

and let me love this loveless life again
because i wont feel anything else once this ends

and I know there's no one here to care but me
I just want to remember what it felt like to feel a memory