things change they don't get better

thought a steady diet of meth and viagra  
keeping me workin that overtime  
and being a beast in the bedroom  
would make up for all the other cheapish things i do  
   
no such luck  
   
she still won't hold me down when  
i'm drunk  
locked up,sick or injured  
   
the ghosts aren't in the machine  
they are the gears that make it go  
tried rohypnol but that's just the same  
as saying you're sorry    
perception is reality  
vs. chloroform doesn't mean it didn't happen  
   
good time moth man  
pillow and grey goose in the trunk  
pamper the experience  
   
got the club on the steering grip  
boot on the rim  
chain from frame to bridge support  
timex keeps on tickin  
funny how fertilizer crusades  
to make everyone all the same  
   
memory always locked in a box  
combination on the inside of a ring    
i can't get off my swollen finger  
just need to see  
patterns in the ash  
   
still hear her sing  
still see you say  
   
you'll never be more than you are right now  
   
and then it morphs form