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Do you even get it? I want to fuckig die. My parents hate me. Even my mother told me she wished I had never been born. My dad acts like I hadnt. He's not even bothered with me since boxing day. I lost my baby. My boyfriend left me. I'm alone and no one gives a fuck. This guy I know, he's fucking me every now and again, sometimes he even lets me cum. Which is nice, I suppose, shows a bit of consideration. But let's face it, I will always be a whore, a fat disgusting whore. And no one will ever want to be with me, as a friend, or a family member, or a lover. I'm sick of being alone, of being unwanted. Like my mum said; "No one will miss you". Maybe I should just shoot myself. I don't have a gun. I can't tie a rope, and I can never cut deep enough. I tried to drink bleach once, and I survived. I don't have pills.
My roof will have to do.
My roof will have to do.
Published 27th Jun 2014
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28th Jun 2014 1:13am
I wish you didn't feel this way, you don't deserve it. You're not a whore nor are you disgusting. Ever since I met you, you've been an amazing friend and you are the most beautiful girl I've ever met with all honesty. You're also the most talented person I've ever met and when you told me about your talents I could tell you were gonna go far. Please don't harm yourself, you may not think anyone cares for you but I do and without you I'd be miserable.
28th Jun 2014 12:04pm
this was one of the first pieces i read this morning. i'm still not sure how to reply and make it sound sincere and not full of the bullshit clichés people often toss around.
1. you are not fat. really. fat is what they show on tlc shows and you are not it. at all.
2. you are not a whore. as a beautiful, sensitive and intelligent young woman, you deserve to be treated better. you deserve someone who doesn't make you feel like you are worthless or only good for one thing.
3. sadly, you cannot choose your parents.
ask me, mine were two of the most fucked up creatures that ever got together to spawn.
you can choose not to believe their bullshit though. if they're so incapable of seeing what a wonderful person you are, then fuck them and the horse they rode in on. are they worth the hurt you feel? are they worth feeling worthless and unloved?
4. suicide isn't the answer. it doesn't always work and you're left living with some half arsed survivors guilt and god alone knows what kind of poor health too.
the feelings pass. not over night. but they do wane with time as you find yourself again.
(you're also welcome to tell me
to take all of the above and shove my dr. phil persona up my ass and shove off)
i agree with everything Mister Pancakes has said and i would certainly miss your talent.
cut ties with those who can't contribute positivity to your life. you're worth more than how they make you feel.
transatlantic hugs
kat
1. you are not fat. really. fat is what they show on tlc shows and you are not it. at all.
2. you are not a whore. as a beautiful, sensitive and intelligent young woman, you deserve to be treated better. you deserve someone who doesn't make you feel like you are worthless or only good for one thing.
3. sadly, you cannot choose your parents.
ask me, mine were two of the most fucked up creatures that ever got together to spawn.
you can choose not to believe their bullshit though. if they're so incapable of seeing what a wonderful person you are, then fuck them and the horse they rode in on. are they worth the hurt you feel? are they worth feeling worthless and unloved?
4. suicide isn't the answer. it doesn't always work and you're left living with some half arsed survivors guilt and god alone knows what kind of poor health too.
the feelings pass. not over night. but they do wane with time as you find yourself again.
(you're also welcome to tell me
to take all of the above and shove my dr. phil persona up my ass and shove off)
i agree with everything Mister Pancakes has said and i would certainly miss your talent.
cut ties with those who can't contribute positivity to your life. you're worth more than how they make you feel.
transatlantic hugs
kat
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28th Jun 2014 11:06pm
I have never met any o you.
A lot of the time, I don't know what your face looks like, what colour your eyes are, how you have your eggs.
But I love you all so much.
Thank you
A lot of the time, I don't know what your face looks like, what colour your eyes are, how you have your eggs.
But I love you all so much.
Thank you
13th Jul 2014 00:41am
You are beautifully honest, I won't bombard you with attempts at comfort, sometimes not much can be had for some of us.
But I admire your writing, truly I do.
Whether poetic or not, It conveys feeling, I live for that, So thank you for the read.
Be Happy
But I admire your writing, truly I do.
Whether poetic or not, It conveys feeling, I live for that, So thank you for the read.
Be Happy
20th Jul 2014 8:37pm
I agree with MadameLavender, maybe it's time to leave and find a place to heal and grow and be happy.
