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Recollections of dark past come forth out of drunken nights spent  
trying to forget the things that forge an angry demeanor.
attention wandering off into dark visions,shadowed memories of forgotten time.
a past that resonates loudly into a drone clouded present, mere  
moments twisted into a convoluted , distorted time fog.
festering emotions,chasms deep torment,shadowed reflections slowly
filling an abyss of pain and misery, mirrored in the cold dark places of the soul..
dreams desolate of reality, empty thoughts, fear of demise and the  
unknown obscuring all reason for living, sickening, corrupting all
my resolute, A hopeless belief I can't overcome !