Trapped

I'm trapped in this shell
And I'm going through hell
People keep talking, mostly of me
All they focus on is negativity

I'm stuck in this rut
And dont know how to get out
I feel a stab in my gut
I just want to shout

Where is everyone's support
When I need it most?
Maybe they got a passport
To somewhere on the coaat

This nagging feeling inside
Just wont go away
So many nights I've cried
On my knees and prayed

When I look in the mirror
I dont see myself
I'm somewhat less pure
And want to be someone else

My smiles are all utterly fake
My sorrows are never-ending
It's just to much to take
I cant remember when I was last happy

I seem to have lost myself
Somewhere along this journey
I pray for salvation
Or for a gurney
Either one is a savior in itself