This Is Now

I'm walking taller now.
I'm walking on my own ground.
You're not holding me down.
My heart remembers it's own sound.
I'm stronger now.
You made me this way.
You broke my heart too many times.
I could feel you slipping away.
I'm broken now.
I knew this would come.
I trusted too much.
It's a blessing to be numb.
I'm still the same now.
I'm still the person you knew.
I haven't changed, but my feelings have.
But surprisingly, I still love you.
I'm in pain now.
But isn't normal to ache?
This pain brings me life.
Is life a chance I want to take?
I'm alive now.
But I still feel dead inside.
A horrible contradiction.
Being born the moment that you died.
I'm alone now.
Ah, the joys of being alone.
No one to watch you cry or bleed.
That luxury is now my own.
I see the same world now.
Through the same cold heart.
I see more color, but does that matter?
Color or no, it will still fall apart.
I'm bleeding words now.
And my god does it feel pure!
You were the disease.
This is my cure.