June 16th 2014

I worked out today, but in a weird way. My friend called me and he said we were going to bike up to this college town near the city for a couple of days. So we biked in this god awful heat to this town. It's amazingly pretty and urban at the same time. And seems expensive. Right now, we are staying in his cousin's basement. I'm so glad to be out of the city, if only for a couple of days. I can feel the creative juices flowing. I hated the bike ride, cause it was hot as hell. Maybe the high 70's and mid to low 80's are pants weather for some, but I naturally wear shorts in single digits. It's weird, cause I'm from the South, but I guess I never truly belonged there. So now, I hate anything above 75. Might move to Alaska, but then again, I hate the people there. And there is no real city, so...fuck. I would move to Canada, but I don't want to be an immigrant. Plus, I have no family there. I mainly have family in Europe and Asia, but I don't want to move there. Everything in Europe is too censored or too politically correct or too offensive, at least the places I've been to. I would like to visit Japan. But I would like to learn the language much better, before. All I can do is say some random words, in Japanese. I know nothing, but I do know some of their culture. Very little, but I know more than the average American, that doesn't study (formally and/or informally) Japanese or Asian culture.

So my friend and I, the one I'm with right now, went to the gym the other day. After working out for about 90 minutes, we went to this sauna. It felt nice and was nice, until this old white guy with really long blonde hair came in butt naked. So my friend was lying down on one of the benches, and I told him we had to go. He looked around for me, and thought I was the old white man. The man got confused, then thought my friend was racist for thinking all white people look the same. Which is weird, because it's more common that white people think non-white people look the same. Fuck you random old man.

I also started to feel sleepy. There's a difference between tired and sleepy. Tired is feeling like shit, and sleepy is like you're about to fall asleep while eating. Caffeine is my drug of choice. I love soda, and coffee and the pure stuff. I don't like energy drinks though. Most make me fall asleep and they're expensive.

I remember the first time I had "The Talk". I was five. My brother came into my room and yelled at me, "The penis goes into the vagina!" He then left my room and my parents had to explain everything to me, in vast detail. That day, I also learned that there was no Santa, no Easter bunny and no tooth fairy. It was a traumatic day for my five year old self. Needless to say, I skipped school for two days.

Apparently, you are less likely to lie to someone you are sexually attracted to. I find this false. I can lie to just about everyone and show no signs, and I've become numb. I hate myself for doing it, but sometimes it's necessary. Maybe I feel that way because I was the youngest, but fuck you self therapy for making me think that way.