Silencing pain

Why am I hurting so bad inside?
For so many nights I have laid there and cried
I search for a cure
For this pain I endure
Without success, I wish to run and hide

Small words escape these trembling lips
Noone can hear me and into a dark place I seem to slip
There I remain for what seems an eternity
I slowly embrace my new found insanity
But still down my cheeks, tears continue to drip

My skin aches with even the slightest touch
There's no way one human can withstand so much
This torturous pain must be cause by a foreign entity
I curl up in a ball most pathetically
And lay in my pool of tears and blood, my wounds I clutch
But I refuse your pity, won't use my agony as a crutch
The only way to cease this pain
Is to leave this world, or I'll go insane

Wish I could go to a place where I can't feel a thing
And escape this evil I'm constantly facing
Because to remain here is like an eternal flame
Burning me constantly, the worst feeling

Nothing left to do but give up all hope
I'll never be free of this down spiraling slope
And still these wounds, you continue to poke
Causing me more misery than any has spoke
It seems this is something you yern to provoke

This smile on my face is utterly fake
And through my heart I discover a stake
This you put there, which was a mistake
Now it's your misery I'll pursue to make

Time for revenge, so you understand what I endure
Bexause you're insensitive and selfish
With actions so obscure
The blade in your back, I'll delightfully secure
And demons of my past, to you I will lure

You will taste my delicious fury
And I'll administer it without a worry
It seems now, it's me you'll be fearing
Now you look at me with sympathy with eyes oh so teary