Somber Air~

I just want to define solitude
& drown in darkness,
cause it's already blackened my soul'
Penetrated my head as it aches to be fed.
With hope & sanity,
What happened to humanity?
Shreds of my spirit get dragged in the fire..
Burnt to ash with each opportunity that seems to pass.
Sick to my stomach of the words I just heard
Blank & numb staring at what my life has become.
I'm no longer living merely surviving,
all the while the need to be strong continues thriving.
But i wanna be weak
maybe for a week,
listen to my voices & hear what they speak.
Tired of scraping..
like breaks to the car my sister can't put gas in.
Wearing my losses like a jersey
Depression on my back ripping threads
looking for the edge but I think I'm already there,
Gravity inhales me with this heavy cloudy air.
Silence breaking my mirror within It's frame
questioning my sight but theres no one to blame..
Cause the reflection of my being has always been the same!