regret

Regret
Remorse
Guilt
Repent

My one regret; only remorse
Was not being true
Not using my voice
Allowing to be led off course

Just wanting to be liked
Trying to fit in
Befriending the wrong people
Only to avoid spite

For sheepish security
Glad it wasn't me
Teased and tormented
Befriending the bully

Insecurity and need
No self esteem
Shy and nieve
And seemingly unnoticed

Then a boy paid me attention
Didn't know his name
Clueless of his reputation

I feel so in love
He said the same
He vowed I was his only
The one he dreamed of

Encircled by so called friends
He charmed his followers
Manipulating and lying
Burning a candle at both ends

His entourage grew
Still claiming he loved me
Our time together less
Him always with his crew

Neglected and lost
Assuming I was to blame
Hoping he'd call
But at what cost

I was enabling his behaviour
And decided I had a choice
Get on with my life
Give him the boot; tell him it's over