Why Now?

A day away from my last test
A curse knocks on my door
Without help,hundred miles away from my mother's nest
I calm down and lay on the floor

My skin turns red
Smallpox invades my skin
Helpless,I stare as it spreads
New camouflage coats my skin

A new day welcomes the sun
Wake up and nothing has changed
Suicide may be an option..if only i had a gun
A feeling of being chained

If there's a price,how much must I pay?
If there's a sacrifice..I'll bring the knife
Can't even prepare for the day
This is probably the worst day of my life

Out of all the day,weeks and years
I'm left asking..'why now'?