Self Blackmail

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The melody that is my heartbeat,
A song i cant even sing.
At every corner it seems to skip.

I shared my life like gossip,
But much like a toilet pit,
They all came to spit and take a shit.
Allowed others to take a sip,
Now i stare at what used to be me.

Playing a guitar with broken strings,
Much like my life swings.
No sense in holding onto dreams,
Slept believing it was me still,
A fool i am,so it seems.

I pushed myself into a corner,
My life lept outta order,
Found it hard to stay sober,
Now i'm stuck in a coma.

I am but a black male,
That allowed himself to be blackmailed...