High hopes heavy heart

Sometimes, you get your hopes up
You promised yourself you wouldn't
You've been through this before, it isn't your first rodeo
You know you're never someone's first choice
There's always someone they want more
Yet you still grow attached
You still hope
You still think maybe they'll want you back
And then they don't
And you're sitting there, playing the fool
Isn't it lovely you're a mockery all for their amusement
So congratulations stupid girl
You look into the mirror wondering who's the biggest fool
It was you little girl, who kept on trying
Now you question why you can't stop crying
You enjoy being alone, the freedom it brings
Yet you fear being lonely, craving human contact
Yet run away from those who are sweet and mean well
But stay around those who don't care like a stray puppy looking for a home
You'll never be good enough for anyone if you don't start to love yourself
Yet you can't see anything worth loving
You're not good enough
Not even for your damn self