fucking cheat

Yea.. nothing hurts more than being cheated by someone you love.. Such feelings of murderous hate seem quite justifyable when in the heat of the moment.. but you have to concider your own self worth and weather it is an insecurity brought on by her act of cheating that is making you feel this way and not the fact that she betrayed you.. i think desire is the ultimate enemy here. Desire creates a fear of loss. it creates paranoia and hatred and envy. When you truley Love yourself then no one can hurt you. It is ourselves that allow our hearts to be broken. it is our desire that betrays us. if you desire nothing.. nothing can hurt you. But that may seem impossible and i understand that.. but things fall apart so better things can come together. Peace

I don't think any woman will truly fully love herself. And desire is only natural, along with insecurities and fear and whatever. I understand your opinion though and I'm glad you shared it. I've never looked at things that way.

I'm only human unfortunately

Desire is natural of coarse.. theres nothing wrong with it.. but what im saying is that it must be brought under control.. when we are ruled by our desires thats when things go wrong emotionaly.. And theres no such thing as only human.. To be human is quite a magnificent thing realy.. You say human like were something weak and powerless...

Well you speak of me like I can do magical things.. Like not be ruled by my desires:(

Tell me, how do I not be ruled by my desires?

Well first off youre desires are not you. there yours.. so this proves that they can be set aside and examined. Secondly, You know that its all in the mind. You cant be emotionally ttached to someone against your will so its a matter of you choosing to be affected by said person. Thirdly you must cincider exactly where this desire comes from. Either way it has a beginning middle and end.Now this feeling may seem uncontrollable to you but its really voluntart. you have to concider wether you have this desire because they made you feel this way or if you yourself is inflicting yourself with these feelings out of pride. Maybe you feel like you deserve this persons loyalty and when you get it you feel like fate is somehow being unfair. I think your sad because you keep telling yourself that you are. And that theres no one out there but this specific person but that is a lie. Now another thing is if you realy love someone that means you have to love them even if they wont love you back. now i know how painful this is. Now i am struggling with the same thing myself. But i just want you to know that you dont have to be a slave to your emotions and feelings because they are tools of your ego. They are a part of you but only a small part. They are mental tools that the ego uses and you can use these same tools to your advantage. you asked me a simple question yet the answer is more complicated not because the answer its self is.. but the explaining process is. thers alot more that id like to add to this but this is a long enough comment already. but if youd realy want to know more on how to controll your own thoughts and emotions i suggest you read this little book http://home.deds.nl/~sadhana/ebooks/Raja%20Yoga%20-%20Yogi%20Ramacharaka.pdf

Yup we have all been there sadly:\
Great expression.
Keep writing!
Zazzles