a feeling when needing a fri3end

your last words
were leave me the fuck alone
and go die or something
the thought of blood running
out of my body continuously
is exciting

my tears shed for my mother
and my body
please feed it to the dogs
the wolves
something that can continue
the journey of death

to die
would make me live
because though i deny
all feelings they were there
they were not real
but they were there
i will someone
would fight me

k.o. me
and break my neck
dont call the ambulance
just leave me here
dont call anyone
just shut off the lights
and leave
tell no one of my death

tell everyone im happy
in a much better place
becasue if hell is worst
then this
it has to be pretty bad
but no hell no fire
no falmes could be as
hurtful as this
but im not sad
im hurt

the difference you mat say
there is not one
but i know there is
sadness is when you lose
your puppy
or your mom
hurt is when your betrayed by someone
you tried so hard to change for
but could it
I guess i couldnt

Death is the ened of the light
but I will experience somthing
but please not love
i dont want it
all i need...
is a friend