Why Even Bother?

There comes a time when giving up
becomes the only option
at least that's what you tell yourself
there's nothing, no one, nowhere
who ever thinks about how you are
so why even bother?

so close to being okay
then you relapse back into a darker day
a place few have gone and ever will
and you wait for relief
but it seldom comes
still, why even bother?

people say they value your worth
but they're the same ones who put you down
you hang on for the one person you do trust
the only one who understands you
accepts you in good and in bad
but sometimes it's not enough
your mind crowds out the love with hate
now why even bother?

take a step towards your end
reach out your hand and no one's there
you could check your phone, maybe someone will call
send you a life-saving message
but why even bother?

stare down at the full tub
or the overdose of pills
or the razor
or the gun
or the rope in your hands
you could end it all in seconds
then something says "why even bother?"

however this message comes across to you
I fight this story every day
almost my ending, but never my destiny
so tell me, why even bother?