Memories Tears

My heart weeps with memories tears
Thinking of times when you were still here
Neither moving on nor standing still
Doing what I must, but this hole inside won’t heal
The overwhelming pressure hurt and pain
Feelings of contentment I cannot gain
Spring comes around with a mental fall
I wonder if you think of me or care at all…
Anniversary of the first time we met
Now you’ve hid yourself away from me, untruths, deception, regret..
So, like a child I discipline myself; for loving you
Telling myself to "stop, listen, he wasn’t true”
But the merry-go-round makes its faithful spin…
And I’m left missing you…again and again.