Grey

The raging ocean
bashing up against the rocks
a cold grey sky...

havent seen it in ages
I'm heading there...

waiting for a day in the sun, waiting...
The ocean grey, the rain lifts my mood.

the sun isn't blinding, and the ground doesnt burn my feet,

I wanted out for how many years?
now I dont want to leave.

I'm scared.

all the familiar sights,
what will it be like without these mountains
locking me in?

what will seem like?
all these people,
bonds have never been strong,
people I like all gone.

I have noone to leave behind,
it's finally the day, after all my moaning...

I want to stay...
I want to stay the same...

I'm going, leaving...
finally...
the upbeat songs, skip the last three and go on...

for hours in the same car, to a different place, I have a few memories of,
a place I loved.

but still, I dont want to leave every sweaty summer, every
freazing winter, theres never used to be any rain...

I dont want to leave.

misguided conclusions...
throwing out insults...
leaving this place I hate...
leaving these people that were so rude,
Why?
why does it feel this lonely?
it's all I ever knew...
finally driving out of these mountains...
almost 10 years, I'm leaving it all.

a place where my moods are always lifted,
a place where everything is grey...

I'm heading there.