Fallen

I have fallen agan today its nothing new.

Acting strong and lieing to everyone makes them all amused.

I know I am hatted by everyone I meet .

So trying to smile laugh and be happy is realy annoying to me .

I am tired of being everything you all want me to be.

I am tired of acting like I am normal when in realty I am not .

I have fallen off the pedistool to wich you hold me as a god .

I told you time and times agan I am not god or an angel or anything even close to it .

I hate my self and everything about me !!! I hate haveing to be what you all want me to be.

I keep my mouth shut just so I dont hurt anyone .

I let them use me how they want even though its not fun .

I have fallen down the hole in to the depths of pain and desspare.
I had enough of your lies and fake smiles.

Yes i have fallen so fucking what so what i am not normal and sad and depressed all the time .

but becuse i am not all smiles and laughing like a normal person.

you want to throw me out like trash.

saying your wishing for a wonderful and beautiful girl who is nothing but happy and smiles all the time .

Not a fallen and depressed girl who you cant handle at all in anyway .

WILL FUCK YOU AND NOW I REALY WANT TO DIE......