You Can't Understand Bipolar…Can You?

I wake up dead inside of course
You’d think it wouldn’t hit me with such force
But each morning the same episodes replay
You think they’d at least try to delay

It’s a constant battle but they never stop
You think I might be hitting a drop
Oh trust me it gets worse
You think it seems just like a curse

You don’t even slightly understand
You think I should take your hand
Wish I could grab it but I’m too far now
You wonder how..

It’s because I’m in too deep
I can see reality crumble at my feet
Not possible? Think again
I’m falling at 10

At 10:15 I’ll be too high
I’m telling reality goodbye
Now you’ll see all the fun
Take a step in my mind but don’t run

Talking fast and thoughts racing
Only the beginning now I’m pacing
Watch it get scary and exciting
As I start to stop fighting

Lets see how far we can go
Take the gun and watch it blow
Take a hit of adrenaline
While I do it again

Don’t worry it’s just for fun
Until I’m done…
Getting on a low…
You’ll see how deep I go

You’re gonna watch me drown
Watch as I sink deeper in the ground
Falling into the blackness
It’s my own personal abyss

No one is with me
So it’s almost free
Except I’m restrained
Restrained by the pain

But sadness isn’t what I feel
It’s empty and unreal
Darkness consumes me and emotion is gone
You say that didn’t take very long

And it never does…
I can’t even remember what I was
What I was before this
But isn't ignorance bliss?