Labyrinth

How can i let go this pain and sadness?  
I am tired of feeling this way  
And hoping that you might help me get through all this shit.  
Is it even possible to feel the way i do all the time?  
Or is it not a feeling anymore.  
Am i the sadness or the sadness is me?  
 
I sleep for so long and yet i am tired.  
I am sad enough to cry a river  
But where did the tears go?  
Maybe even the tears are sick and tired of me now  
So what makes you so brave  
That you won't get tired of me  
That you won't be around to hold me  
When i am about to break down completely  
Maybe i am a freak show  
Who,somehow, everyone leave's alone  
 
It's beautifully sunny outside people say  
But why can't my eyes see the sun shining ?  
All these hollow eyes see is rain and darkness  
Tell me i am not crazy  
Tell me this isn't insanity  
Speak up now  
And dare to say that this isn't your fault  
That i am blind enough not to see  
The sun outside instead of the rain  
This colourful world instead of black and white  
 
How are you ever gonna admit  
It's all your fault  
When you don't even have the guts  
To turn around and hug me.  
Oh friend what did i ever do to make you run away  
Look my soul is dead  
My body seems alive but it's numb and feels no pain  
I am done with your twisted lies  
I will forever stay lost in this labyrinth