What is love? Did I love you?

I cant help who I am
Nor that Im scared inside
I cant help that I wear my heart on my sleave and cry
Contemplating suicide
Because I loved you or so I thought
And the sentiment wasnt returned
I cant help that I gave it all to risk
And you left me burned
Just like all the others

I love the darkness
Where I can hide
Where no one will see my tears growing with time
Im glad youre gone cuz now I cant try to survive
But I felt strength with you
And you reminded me of someone I knew

Do you like me tortured and charred
Cuz thats what Ill be for you
If you insist
Ill cut my wrist and show a lil shoulder
Just for you to stab
Cuz I thought I loved you
And I regret that I had and maybe still

I plant songs in my head
To put aside my thoughts
I write songs that'll burn throughout the night
Cuz its the only way

So break me down
Deteriate me
If it makes you well
Do it some more
And sure the bruises swell