Me

I want to be saved from myself.
I know I should be good,
Yet I'm at my best when destroyed.
I want to be normal,
but the horrible, insane,lonely monster that is controlling me
denies it.
I want to be happy and carefree,
but when ever I get a chance at being the girl you think you see,
I ruin everything.
I can't take it anymore, I can't keep hurting those I do and don't love, it's too hard to keep going with the illusion I am.
So as a final sin, as a final accident,
I take a deep breath, let go of life;
enjoy peace within the darkness.