Who am I?

Who am I?
A 16 year old that nobody sees
someone that everyone leaves
Or am I a disturbed child?
everyone thinking that my voice needs a dial
So nobody has to listen to my voice
and they think they can bury with toys
But wait what are you telling me
that I'm not who I'm suppose to be?
Nothing I've done pleases thee
Yet you've never paid attention to deem
Me a misfit, someone who doesn't learn
yet yall never given me a turn
To speak my piece
So I release
All the pain, all the sorrow
i have in me
Only to carve it away
so that I chase the pain away
Leaving me alone, in my destructive ways
that I'm left counting down the days
I have never let anyone come close to me
cause fear of the type of person they may be
So now I look at my soul
knowing life took its toll
That I'm left wondering in the dark
Who am I?