Hell...

The cold realization that I am still here has begun to set in. What am I doing, I should be gone by now. I can not make it in this cruel world anymore. Yet here I am with the blade falling from my hand...I can't do it. I can't take my own life. I no longer want to be here, but I don't want to be in hell for eternity either..or am I already their having made the choice before. And I have to replay the agonizing decision over and over again forever...someone anyone please help me. Save me from my sin,save me from myself...please.