Bad Decisions

 I lay here in my final moments wonderings why I did the things I did. Wishing I had just one more moment to tell my parents this: I'm sorry I couldn't be the daughter you, to always going out to parties instead of spending the time with you. Please don't be ashamed of me and remember all the good times we had. I'm sorry; I love you.
    Now, my blood is all around me as I try so hard not to cry. I can hear the paramedics in the distance, saying its a shame this girl is going to die. I close my eyes and wonder what it would have been like if I had tried a little harder, tried to regain the night. Now, it's almost over; the darkness is fading in. What will they tell my family when they get the news to them? Will they say that they found their only child lying in a ditch...? I know I made some bad decisions, but it shouldn't have to end like this. Should have stayed home tonight and had those extra drinks. I should've, could've, would've but I didn't even think......