what my future holds

fucking hate me
date me i think not
stop telling me im beautiful
im NOT im not your doll
your play thing your damn inspiration
individuality what  the hell is that
pain something i have always known
hearing them scream ITS ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT
crying yelling at them i am something
no i am NOTHING!!!!!
friggin hold me tell me you love me
tell me they are all wrong
tell me im not just some play toy some rag doll
tell me im more not some damn whore
i am a female no iam teen
NO i am a small girl a child waiting to be held
but when im older i fear i will become the girls on tv 
make believing i am beautiful
am i beautiful no i am a child waiting to be scolded 
for something i didnt do
a teen waiting to fall off the earth and fucking perish
wanting to be an adult but fearing what kind of adult i will be
i dont know stop FUCKING YELLING AT ME