If I never wake again

If I never wake again
just know it's not your fault,
and that I love you.

The demons inside me took me away.
I gave into them.
I just couldn't control them any longer.

If I never wake again
I don't want you to mourn.
I want you to rejoice,
and know that only my body is dead.
My soul lives on within your happiness.

If I never wake again
I want my funeral to be a huge party.
I don't want flowers.
I want balloons.
My friends should sing songs.
My family should play my favorite music.
I want a white casket,
and everyone needs to write on it.
Most importantly,
I want people to read my poetry.

If I never wake again
just know it's not your fault,
and that I love you