would I be missed

I wrapped a belt around my neck
Last night
It gave me this feeling
this feeling like no one would miss me
As I stood there
I wondered
When I am gone
Can someone ever say they loved me
That they never meant to destroy
The girl with a smile
Thats how I am known here
I smile becasue of negativity
No matter what
I strive to be happy
Even when all I want
Is to fall to my knees and cry
You screamed at me
As I wrapped it tighter
Told me to stop
But why would want to
You grabbed the knife from the kitchen
And I finally let the belt go...