Unrecognizable

I look in the mirror & what do I see?
An unrecognizable reflection of me.
My eyes so sad with no sign of life
Sixteen years I have been his wife.
So many hurts & pains inside
He doesn't see me as his beautiful bride.
He lusts & longs for other lovers
My disgust in him I try to cover.
Layers of hurt blanket my soul
I don't know how I lost control.
Feeling so ugly from the outside in
So much pain I don't know where to begin.

My daddy used to say I wasn't pretty
Called me a bitch without a worry.
A grown woman here I am now
Forgetting those hurtful words, I wish I knew how.
I take a look into the mirror
Who I have become I truly fear.
So unrecognizable only to my eyes
I wish I would never have accepted his lies.