A real moment

Everyone seems to think that I have it all together and most times I do. They seem to think that I can handle just about anything and most of the time I can. I feel like I am suppose to have all good days that I am always to have a smile and my chin is to be up. I fell like I'm not suppose to get mad about things or ever be frustrated. Im suppose to have all the answers and be on top of everything.
Well here is the truth. I do have bad days I don't always have it all together and there are days I just want to break down and cry and let you know I am not as strong as what you think I am. Sometimes I don't want to be the strong one I don't want to be the one making all the decisions and I am tired of doing life on my own. I love being a mother and I wouldn't trade it for the world but just once in a while I would like adult time to spend with someone special. Someone that can make me relax and take care of me just for a short while. This may seem trite to some but sometimes just being able to say Im not all that you think I am and I just want to be loved needs to be said but to say it makes me appear weak and that bothers me even more. So thank you for lending an ear Im back up ready to face life and be the friend the mom the woman others expect me to be.