My Personal Hell

I know what Hell must be like
Because I'm trapped there and can't escape.  
I thought I knew what suffering felt like
But now, I don't feel anything.
    
I need to see something die.
That way I would know I'm still alive.
Anymore, I'm so dead inside
 I keep wondering what the fuck I'm doing still existing.
 
I wish it would go away.
I can't keep pretending to be happy.
I can't make it go away.
I'm in Hell.