oh yes

heat the torch, get it hot
red hot, white hot, two shots for the have-nots
touch it to it
you know how to do it

inhale
breathe in
nothing's happening
oh shit, I think you win
my whole world is starting to spin

fade to black
lay on my back
I can't stand up
I can't take a breath
I think I might have just used myself to death

my eyes are open but I can't see a thing
body crumpled under me but It feels like i'm floating
darkness increases, my breathing it ceases
musics gone, I feel so good
so nothing
I left my fucking body
I'm not an entity, come back quickly i'm losing me
I can't think anymore
what's happening oh fuck i'm gonna die
overdosed and not even on the stuff I used the most

Wake up gasping for air, coughing
I don't think I feel any better than I did before
but I can't remember
fuck me
this is proper misery
permanent euphoria trapped me

oh the irony