Twenty Years

Steal the breath in my lungs, To escape the clutch of a darker day
A hopeless life lived so hopelessly devoted to hope and all its lies
Steel the heart in my chest, To escape the pain of a brighter day
A broken life lived so brokenly devoted to love and all its truth

Haunted forever by these fading memories of the passerby
A thousand bystanders and not one stopped to say goodbye
Am I forever destined to be unseen and unheard and unaided
Or am I forever biding my time, Waiting for you to come back

Never follow in my footsteps, I’ve seen too many try and fall so hard
Tripping over my heart and the sorrow, I’ve seen the tears of the downtrodden
Never pray for my blackened soul, I’ve seen too many try and fail so far
Sinking deeper beneath  my shadow, Covered in sin and the tears of the damned

I’m not a god, I’m not a devil, I’m not a demon, I’m not an angel
I’m hardly a human, I’m hardly a person, I’m hardly a beating heart
I’m barely alive, I’m barely dead, I’m barely open, I’m barely closed
I’m rarely loved, I’m rarely hated, I’m rarely touched, I’m rarely forgotten

A thousand dualities trapped inside such a short life
Twenty years of seconds to forget, Twenty years of seconds I could never forget
A thousand destinies trapped inside such a cursed life
Twenty years of life to forget, Twenty years of death I could never forget