Opinions

My opinion never mattered

I’m always yelled at to shut up

My feelings are always shattered

Like the screen door to my porch



Because my opinion never mattered

I speak loudly at school where it does

Because my opinion never mattered

My family is dysfunctional

Because my opinion never mattered

Both my parents are divorced

Because my opinion never mattered

My daddy’s in a depression

Because my opinion never mattered

My house is not a home.


And


My opinion never mattered

When I was scared to sleep at night

My opinion never mattered

When you two were at each other’s throats

My opinion never mattered

When daddy was on painkillers and booze

My opinion never mattered

When he would drive home drunk

My opinion never mattered

When he almost died from drug overdose



And my opinion still didn't matter

When I would hear my mother scream at night from pain and frustration

It didn't matter

When my brother started to drink like my dad from all the anger taken out on him unjustly by my mother

It didn't matter

When my sister and I had to raise each other, because we had no one else responsible enough to do it themselves

It didn't matter

When we would count our scars like we counted our tears



But maybe if my opinion did matter

I would have spoken so many things that I only dared to think

If my opinion did matter

Mommy and daddy might have worked things out.

If my opinion mattered

My sister and I could sleep peacefully for once in our lives.

If my opinion mattered

Maybe the nightmares that hunt my dreams would stop

If my opinion mattered...

If it mattered.....

The possibilities are endless

But its too late.. isn't it?