Every Silent Moment

If I should challenge your faith, I apologize for ever criticizing your lies
If I should challenge your love, I apologize for ever criticizing your ignorance
If I should challenge your life, I apologize for ever criticizing your struggle
If I should challenge your hope, I apologize for ever criticizing your power

I feel I’ve left everything behind, Wandering through the endless seas of sand
I once landed in an hourglass, Inside my mind but inside my wretched soul
The time passes oh so slow, Creating in me a maze for my memory to follow through
With a white rabbit leading me on, The wolves giving me strength and your heart to crush me

I cursed the day you were born, As you cursed the day I walked into your life
This was cursed the day it was created, A life meant to break apart at the seams
I’m sorry for every hug and kiss and silent moment we laid inside each other’s arms
I’m sorry for every hit and push and silent moment we laid inside each other’s mind

I hate myself for my insecurities, I hate myself for ever doubting your love
I hate myself for my shortcomings, I hate myself for ever questioning your motives
I hate myself for the life I’ve had, I hate myself for ever walking into your masterpiece
Only to shatter the walls, Smear the colors and drown in your crimson tears

I always felt selfless, Begging for you once I fell to my knees
I thought you were selfish, Always dragging me up and onward
I always felt hopeful, Holding you so close to my broken heart
I thought you were hopeless, Always taking me back into yours