The Average Life and Death

Alone party with nobody                
and I know nobody’s party’s really just as lonely as me.
smoke one, sip some till we all numb.
take to chillin’ straight to dealin’ straight up villian take to killin’
maybe my mind will actually be set free
so try to ease my rattled nerves
so I don’t spit some bad ole verbs
I’ll light myself some stress relief
a little taste of death,  a little taste of Ses, a little taste of life, a little chance to rest
It seems to help to ease the pain
it’s the only thing that helps to block the breeze in the freezing rain
when its stormin with no hope of the sun’s rays in sight- no money, no electricity, no light.
When it rains its bound to start down pourin,
its enough to drive you insane shit about being poor.
And just guns aimed at my future
like shit aint neva looking bright.
Just hammers slammin and bullets flashin like lightning and thunder
your senses crashing as you can barely feel the rising water.
like shit aint feelin’ right. Really it seems shits looking pretty bleak
I think I feel weak but I have a hard time tellin cause I haven’t eaten in about a week.
like I might lose my might I might lose balance between wrong and right
like I might lose my sight and now it’s just like for the first time in my shitty tiny little life
I cant feel pain and maybe one day here you too will feel the same