Don't Fall Apart, Again

We all want that fairy tale ending
To kiss the prince~or princess
To live in an eternal dream
To know we're loved
But what happens when that dream turns into a nightmare
Almost two years of my life wasted
On some guy who didn't care about me, who was more concerned with his friends than his heart broken girlfriend
You'd be surprised at how naive I was
Now I'm alone
The shutters are closed, a layer of dust forms on my body
Still, unmoving, like a doll placed upon a high shelf
Forgotten
I'll never get used to being nothing
To anyone, but I'll continue to smile during the day
Paint a pretty little picture in your mind
While my intestines twist and knot
My lungs collapsing as if I had been a chain smoker for thirty years
Blood running dry when you prick my finger to see if I'm still alive
Tears flow freely
I've never been so sensitive, until I felt a pain that split my mind
My personality
Piercing my body, plans of getting tattooed
I want to change everything
I want to forget, I want love
Like a starving dog ready to attack anything in sight
The need is festering and putrefying underneath my skin
I have morals
But~but I'm getting desperate
I want love, even if it isn't real
Just for the night
I just want to hear it, even if it is everything I fear