.......

Love has never been this hard, you're supposed to walk and hold hands and enjoy each other's company. But in this situation you can't wait to leave, get some air and just breathe. She's suffocating, choking the life out of you every chance she gets. You try to make her happy but all she does is criticize who and what you're doing for her. She doesn't see the struggle you had putting this together. Defying you family and friends advice just to make sure the one you're with is just as true to you as you are to her but its one thing you're missing. It isn't love that she has for you. It isn't about how great your heart is but instead its for what you can do for her lately. Its not all Monetary...oh no its not,its about spoiling her with the cooking, the rubbing of feet and massaging of the body. Candle light love making and sweaty sex that perfumes the air. Its never about the souls that connect in a way that other people don't understand. You yearn for conversation to see whats on her mind but all she does is block you out but she is so quick to ask you for a favor. Realizing that love is more than what I do, it should be for me. I am not perfect and have many flaws but at the end of the day I'm imperfectly perfect. If she can't handle my flaws and all, then maybe I have to stop giving it my all.