I need to vent

No matter what happens the damage has been done
I remember when I would Just like at you for fun
Your smile reminded me of the sun
And I was feeling like I’d won
The lottery or some thing
But then you had to go and do that one thing
And that Just messed everything all up
Now I gotta put the walls back up
Fuck
The situation Is hopeless and your to blame
Because no matter how It ends I’m never gonna look at you the same
I have to kill you In a sense
And when you have to kill someone you care about It hurts because you’re dead to me
And the things you said to me
Really don’t mean shit
And as the Judge of this situation my feelings I’m gonna have to a acquit
All cause you wanted to do some dumb shit
I love how I Just turned a little pain Into creativity though
I Just pick up the pen and let and go
But anyways I guess I Just underestimated my feelings and really do care
Or did care
I mean obviously I did If I felt the need to write about It
Luckily for me my logic and emotions don’t wanna fight about It
For once there both on the same page
And I thought I was feeling rage
But I’m actually okay right now
I Just needed to get my thoughts on paper